I am sorry..

I am sorry for what i did,

Its something which i would never regret.

I am sorry that i broke your heart.

I know you always believed in me and was sure that i won't break your trust ,

But this was something which i could never erase.

I would cry thinking about the pain i will cause you ,

But i didn't know what i could do to make it all go away.

You gave me things that i wished for ,

But i only gave you a life full of tears.

It pains me to say but i could never walk away.

You mean everything to me ,

I die everyday to see you like this .

I am sorry for the pain i gave.

I didn't have a choice ,

I was always left behind.

Please don't hate me for what i did ,

Its something which i could never erase.

Hope You Stay

I cry in silence , 
I hide the tears ,
I pretend to be fine when i am breaking into half ,
You always find out what i feel , but will you always be there to make me feel relieved?
I always used to wait for the person who would understand me even in silence , 
Now when i have finally got you why is it that i have to lose you?
I wish i could make you understand,
Its hard to let it free because i know it will only be a misery which i would have to face.
I wish you could still be the same ,
I wish you never had to change ,
I wish i never have to let go..

WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?

You pretend like everything is fine, do you really expect me to believe that lie?
You go on hiding what you got to say,
Do you know how much it really pains??
You try to stay away from me so that i won't get hurt ,
But tell me..what are you doing now?
You are just breaking my heart!
I wish i could get away ,
I am tired of feeling like it's all done.
I wish its not the end because i can never see the life with a smile on my face without you in it.
I will never tell what i have to say cause i don't think it matters to you.
Go on ,  act like you don't care cause i know you really do !

A PROMISE WHICH YOU ONCE MADE

You say i can talk to you, but are you ever there?
You make me want to cry ,
You make me want to run away , 
You make me feel like i have nothing else left to do.
Sometimes all this just makes me feel like a mess.
You are always busy with your life , then you say i will always have you by my side.
I wish it was all true ,
I wish you could hear the shouts which i hide ,
I wish you could see the face which is being hidden ,
I wish i could  get the days back when you really understood what i would hold..!

THE GIRL !

I didn't really think about writing this..i was actually trying to write something else but ended up writing this...i wonder why do i always end writing sad stuff ..!

Sorrow and pain was part of her life,
Each day the darkness would come and put a blanket on the sine of happiness.
When will the sorrow be driven out,
Is there nothing which can fill her life with colors of light.
The world seemed so cold,
And there belonged a girl who would eagerly wait for a glimpse of morning light.
The eyes could see everything,
But there was something missing,
It was the smile of the girl which was lost somewhere in the cruel world.
I wonder when will she get it back,
It was hard to tell for all the world was turning into a pile of cruelty.
Her eyes filled with tears,
No more could she see a thing,
That was the last time that the eyes ever spoke anything,
Because that was the last time she ever opened her eyes....

I wish..

This was the first things which i wrote..not the first but you can say that something which actually made sense...!


Wish i could go back in time,
When everything was fine.
Wish i could realize,
All the things that i have denied.
Don't know where to go,
Its just a broken road,
With no one by my side,
I am lost within time..

HELLO!

Hello everyone..
I am not really a person who loves to write. Well..you can say i am one of those people who write things when they cant really express themselves. Hmmm the first time i ever wrote something was when i was in 4th std but those were just short stories about mouse and cats but they always used to have a moral!  I guess i used to love writing since that time but something happened and i got away from it. I started writing again when i came in 9th std. All the situations made me to write things as i am not the one who will go on telling about how she feels. I am not a really good writer but what else can i do when i feel like nothing in the world is right...
God knows what happened to me that one day i felt like posting the things i wrote somewhere..i can't do that on facebook as it is not really a place for all those things so i came here!
I am not sure if you all will like what i wrote.. many of you may think i am crazy to write stuff like this. I am just someone who would like the world to know how is she in real .. hope you all will like this other side of me